It’s been what?…six or seven weeks since I started this challenge with Lose It Bitches. You can find them here, if you are interested in
Seriously…I have just about had it. I can’t seem to stay on track. I’m not talking about sneaking a miniature Hershey bar here or there. I am talking about eating everything in sight!! I swear, if it’s there then I will eat it.
Yesterday I really had a low point. From the time I got home at 3pm this is what I ate. (yes, I logged it because that is what is supposed to be helpful):
- handful of pretzels
- 4 pringles
- a yogurt with granola
- 2 Hershey’s kisses
- baked chicken breast WITH the skin
- cauliflower and cheese sauce (yum!!)
….step back….do not touch another item…..
This was good. This was a nice way to say “WTF are you doing you fatass???” Her next text was….
….wow…you are pregos…
THIS was bad…very bad. Shame on her for even thinking such a thing!! All I said was KILL ME NOW!!
Come on people…no way could I be “pregos” because my doc promised that he tied my tubes with the last
Seriously now…I absolutely need to stop it with the excuses. I CAN do this. I just need a better plan. I need to write out my meals. Yeah…that should help. See, right now I just go with the flow because that is all I have time for. I wake up, grab my coffee and head to the shower. By the time I am out I have to wake up the tween, get dressed, maybe start a load of laundry that I can rewash later in the week because I will forget to put it in the dryer, wake the tween again, deal with the 3 year old that thinks she needs to be up at the crack of dawn, wake the tween for a third or fourth time…..
….and on and on it goes. By the time I think of eating something, the sitter is there and I haven’t eaten so I shovel a handful of pretzels in my mouth and it’s out the door. This sucks!!
I usually don’t bring a lunch. If I do, I forget about it and just bring it back home with me. Sometimes I will get an oatmeal from Caribou along with my White Chocolate Mocha No Whip Please which is not horrible for a lunch. Sure beats fast food!!
For dinner it’s been hit or miss. Seriously….I feed the kids and that’s about it. The poor spouse has to find something on his own because my brain is fried and by that time I just have nothing left to give.
This is crazy, yes?? And have I said how much it SUCKS????
So, I am going to take the time to write out a meal plan and eat only what is on my plan. I am going to concentrate on my water intake too. In fact….this is fun….I found an iPod app that helps you track your water intake!! Cool, huh?? It’s called “Water your Body”!!
Ok..that is NOT my weight on that screen shot!! Although mine is not much better, it’s still less than that. I am currently at 168 and that’s with a zero loss in the past week. I’m down 6 pounds from when I started…6 or 7 weeks ago….that SUCKS!!
Also, my exercise has been nil. You heard me…..NIL!! I cannot seem to walk away from the toddlers. The spouse is not helpful…bottom line…he is happiest when I’m the one taking care of them. So how do I exercise with 2 toddlers interfering?? I am going to have to find a way some how….some where….I HAVE to….
So there you have it…my drama with my weight loss…or lack there of. Again, I KNOW I can do this. I just have to keep telling myself that.
I hope those of you who are trying to lose it, are losing it…those of you who have lost it….congrats….and those of you who are on the verge of MENTALLY losing it…you are not alone!! I’m the head of that club!!