So, why have I failed to stay on track?? I could say it’s because of my children…causing me stress…but no, that’s not fair. I truly need to just let some other stuff go (laundry, taking out the trash, feeding the kids maybe….) and just do what I have to do! Seriously, I won’t stop feeding my kids, it was just an example. Bottom line….. I need to take the time…..
I’m having a big issue with exercising…I just can’t seem to get my fat ass down the steps to the basement and just DO IT!! I feel like my spouse is thinking “sure, there you go again….leaving me to watch the kids”. Whether or not this is true, it’s in my head that he’s feeling like I am shirking my responsibilities. Am I? Just because I want to take care of me for about 45 minutes??
I swear, I get dressed every morning and I (wait, I have to re-attach my kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk….to the key board…. Thank you Little Man…)
What was I saying?? Oh yeah, I get dressed every morning and say WHAT?!! When the hell did my waist go on a little vacay…..??? Seriously, it’s gone….and I must have back fat too because damn, I am so uncomfortable in my clothes!! All Dayyyy Long I think about what I must look like. It’s horrible!!
Therefore, I am requesting a do-over…you know what I mean, right? Sure you do!! I’m gonna rewind and get back to where I was motivated. This is my plan, once again….
- I need to write down everything I eat, and I mean everything!! Even the chicken fingers that I might steal from Little Man cuz we know he shouldn’t eat 12…right??
- I’m going to exercise, dammit! I am going to look the spouse right in the eye and say, “For Pete’s sake, you can handle it for 45 minutes!! I know you can!!” And I’m going to walk away before he gives me that look. You know the look….the WTF-are-you-talking-about look. I’m going to turn away quickly so I don’t even notice his anxiety at having to watch HIS children. Yes, I am.
- I am going to tell myself every day one thing that I like about me. This one will be tough because I’m really not liking me, nope, not so much. But I will try. For you, ladies, over at Lose It Bitches. I will try….
- I am not going to get stressed over this. I KNOW it can be done. (well, I think so…..)